mood:  haha thats my normal face. not smiling! man so lately it's been a little rough. been kind of distant from my best friends and just chillen. damn so its been six months since i last used this xanga thing. and in those six months.. it's been pretty crazy. my mom survived breast cancer. woo.. was a little worried there. i give her the hardest time ever. she doesnt deserve to be treated the way i talk to her or just leave her hanging. she just bugs me like no other. she tries to care about me, but only when she's not working or is not fighting with her gay ass boyfriend. she's just not the mom like she used to be. now i can't even stand being in the same room with her. work is takes most of my life. as much i hate it, i can't seem to leave. like it's cool and chill. i'm my own boss. it just sucked when i worked in moval. my bf there was mike! damn it was always 3oclock lunch and then just jokin around the work area. it's cool until he got a little too comfortable with my best friends and it just went downhill from there. and then i transfered out to temecula. i only worked there for 3 months, but it was really chill. i hated the drive, but the ppl there were cool as heck! and now i got promoted and got transfered to redlands. into a store of drama waiting to happen. but its cool.. i have my nigga natalie. then nick will always be nick. yea things went downhill for him, but yet i'm proud of him. he's so excited to go to the navy. i know i'm going to miss him like crazy. he was my twin. i never cry or show emotion towards anything, but i know when he leaves, i'm actually going to cry!  i just got done watching pearl harbor. and the part that really got to me was when Rav's best friend Danny came to tell his girl that he died. Man, god forbid that to happen to me. but it's cool though. cuz nick actually includes me into his plans for the future. i just want him to be ok. i have no beef with mono. i think its cuz she lives so far away from here that i miss her a lot. and when she comes down to visit, its just we catch up on things. she broke out of her shell and just wants to do everything now. haha which is good cuz all i want to do is have fun. i wish i could of still worked in temecula cuz i just finially hooked her up with a job at sprint. i know she'll do fine. everyone there is good. good luck buddy! stepho.. man o man. i know it's all my fault that we're just crazy distant right now. i can't explain it. like im not mad at her nor do i hate her. its weird. we just dont talk at all unless we see eachother. not even a text to see how we're doing and stuff. stepho was my best homie. like we always fuck around and now like when i talk to her, she's never in the mood or she's just not enthusiastic as she used to be when we talk. and like this dragged on for so long that its hard to talk to her sometimes. and textin her or calling her is not even on the agenda anymore. but i miss her a lot too, but its my fault cuz i made it that way. and i hope she doesnt think it has anything to do with noe because it doesnt. i think he's cool as fuck and i approve of him. he's ok in my book. i know i just need to work on it more. it all mainly happened around the whole jessica wedding and me moving. and as far as josie. WOW a lot has happened. but no regrets. i held in my fears and scared ness because i to stay strong when she was going through her hard times. but everything is good now. its just kind of random sometimes because i give her the hardest time about her so called boyfriend. which i think is the biggest bitch in the world, and i hate it that i have to respect it and sometimes i just want to call her stupid! but its her desicion. yea she is my wingman and i dont agree on the desicions that she makes, but i know she'll always be my nigga. we hang out a lot.. but lately i've been giving her space so she can work things out with him. but as far as being in the same room with him.. good luck ever seeing that happening again. so in conclusion..
my mom can kiss my ass
nick will always be missed i'm only distant from..
mono cuz of how far she lives
stepho.. i still can't figure it out
josie cuz of her gay ass boyfriend. as far as us having a problem as a group. i know we need to get together and have a talk. but it's either we dont care anymore or we're scared to see what we all have to say and to see if we're all going to be friends again. it was hard losing 2 ppl from OG.. i dont know how it will be if i lose another or even everyone. but other than all this.. i just recently moved into my dads house and my brother chris had to move out to palm springs. i hate it cuz lately we've been hanging out and now im sad because he has a long drive home now and he had to move away to take care of my mom but mainly to make me happy. damn i dont know what else to say other than i know i need theropy or something. bye | 
